PARANOID SOB

Its kinda scary when you don't know who reads your blog.
And all of a sudden someone whom you haven't meet for a long time comes up to you and says something from your blog.
That makes me kinda scared to wanna post some stuff here.
Feel so insecure.
The thing about blogging is you wanna let out a few things here and there.
From randomness to experiences to secrets to just pure taking shots at everyone.
Some people should know and some people must never know.
I'm just saying this cause there's some things I'm dying to let out.
And I got a feeling someones watching.
Paranoid maybe.
Maybe its the effect.

Harep Houdini one last time please...

I'm so fucking screwed la this Friday FoF test.
Demoralized like crazy sia.
The situation is similar to powerplant last sem, only the paper is way harder.
And only god knows how I escaped not forwarding that module.
If I manage to do another escape act this sem, I swear I won't ever get myself into this kind of shit again.
I've had enough arghh.

the perfect weather

and the rain's not helping one bit........................
its cold outside but its hell inside.........................
you really are pathetic...

Its a morning thing

Always happens in the morning.
Wish I woke up in the afternoon.
The fixation. The obsession. The dependance.
Come on ah Rep.
Don't loose yourself to it.
April Rep.
Kalau ade, ade. Kalau takde sudah rep takmo cari.

got me thinking

Parents just signed for a new car.
Cerato Forte. Spicy Red some more.
All for me...
I should be happy. I am happy.
But it got me thinking about the all great things happening in my life right now.
Do I deserve all this?
Do the people who make me happy deserve what I'm giving back to them?
Sometimes I wish I was like
"fuck care la I'm getting what I want why bother about the world" or
"as long as im happy thats all that matters"
Selfish, I know. Who wouldn't want to be.
But that's just not me. That evil me.

Anyway April will be the month.
And from now till April there will be a drastic change in me.
Might as well start now. Start slowly. Know what I'm sayin.
You've tried before but failed so learn from it and get it right this time.

Whats it called?

You know when you eat nasi bryani there's this seed like thingy that hides everywhere inside your rice.
Its supposed to make your bryani smell better or something.
And if you accidentally bite it, it gives your mouth this awful sensation.
I don't know what you call it but I just bit one just now and I'm so disgusted.

Sniff

Gigiiii...
Sakiiiittt...
Takuuutt....

Weeeeeeeeeeeee

Pastamania is officially halal.
I don't know if its old news cause I just heard it today.
But its the second best news I've heard all day!

Random

Ever since I found that tin of milo, thats all I've been having.
5 humongous scoops, last one goes in my mouth.
And I swear I could hear the ant laugh at me.

If I could choose my dream job, I would want a Jamie Oliver or Anthony Bourdain kind of job.
Or even maybe Gordon Ramsay's job.
Who wouldn't wanna travel, cook, eat and be on tv?

I always think I'm Kurt Cobain.
Badass rockstar.
But I don't wanna end up dead.

I suddenly feel like climbing....... My bed!
Seriously though. I feel like trying competitive.

Bean bag is <3.

And lastly.
I LOVE MY FREEDOM.
I'M LOVING IT EVEN MORE.

The caffeine nap

"The Caffeine Nap is simple: you drink a cup of coffee and immediately take a 15-20 minute nap. Researchers found coffee helps clear your system of adenosine, a chemical which makes you sleepy. The combination of a cup of coffee with an immediate nap chaser provided the most alertness for the longest period of time in tests. The recommendation was to nap only 15 minutes, no more or less and you must sleep immediately after the coffee." - sleepdex.org

This is gold.

Areps secret.

My hair romantic sia today.
Everyone tegur.
Paiseh ah.
Blush blush.
Even after climb it just stayed the same.
Today was good hair day. Very rare.
The trick?
No, no wax no gel.
I just wore a cap few hours before.
And I think the style of the hair has some effects on the way you generally do stuff.
Like climb. Extra power with the hair.
Nah I just made it up I'm just happy with my hair today.
Lame ah me today. Right bean bag? Miss you bean bag. Hug bean bag.

Arep in the middle

Theres a power struggle going on at home.
And I'm caught in the middle.
Might be the time for me to call the shots around here.
I need to be firm.
I need to stop following the flow.
I need to have some ego.
Do I?